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[Maybe it's because there were things that snapped Julie the hell out of it earlier on, because Klaus hasn't had anything to snap him out of it until so recently - maybe that's why they have a good influence on each other instead of a bad one. She knows where he is, but maybe she's crawled a bit further out of the shit, just enough that she can reach back to help him out.

It's not something Klaus has ever had, a friend who understood what he's been through in the particular way she does, without still being in the thick of it and dragging him down with them. He's had shit friends like that who understood what he was dealing with, and he's had people in his life who are good influences but who could never really comprehend what he's done and how he's lived.

This is something else. And when she pulls back from the kiss and tells him not to thank her, just not to prove her wrong, he leans his forehead against hers and swallows hard.]

Yeah...yeah yeah...I'm not gonna. I'm...I'm not perfect, god, you know that. But yeah...I'm gonna, I'm gonna keep trying okay? Okay...okay...fuck, Diego is so pissed at me.

[She cradles his head gently in both hands while their foreheads press together, and God he's such a mess but he's so beautiful, too, and she can't remember the last time she wanted to help fix somebody so badly. Julie sees more of the good in Klaus than she thinks even he does, without the years of seeing him fail and fall in front of her to colour her view of his current attempts at digging himself out of the proverbial pit.]

I'm not gonna ask you to be perfect. You're doing fine.

[Julie opens her eyes, looks up at his, so very close. She plants another kiss on his mouth before she leans back and takes both of his hands in hers, curling her fingers against his palms.]

Maybe you should talk to him. [Saying nothing of the conversation that she had with him earlier, before she came out here. She's not even sure he knows what he wants from Klaus in this.]

Why's he so angry, anyway? Because you had the bottle?

[It feels too good, the way she holds his face and says she's not going to ask him to be perfect. That's good, it's good, because he's not perfect, he's far from perfect, and he's never going to be perfect, maybe won't ever be close, even. When she kisses him again, he kisses back and sits up straight again, her hands in his, and okay, that feels a bit better, he feels calmer, it's easier to think.]

Yeah...yeah I promised I'd talk to him after we hung out and I sobered up.

[Closing his eyes for a moment, he exhales and tries to get his head to stop spinning. Then she asks why Diego is so angry, if it's because he had the bottle in the first place, and his heart sinks to sit like a stone in his gut. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.

It would be so easy to lie again, to say it's because he didn't immediately reject the pills when the bot handed them over, or give them to Ben, or whatever else, but the truth weighs on him. She just told him how much she trusts him and believes in him and here he is sitting on a lie he's been telling her since they showed up here. His heart is suddenly pounding and his eyes are stinging because right after this, her telling him how much she trusts him, to confess to a lie? That's probably going to screw everything up, and isn't that so typically fucking Klaus Hargreeves?

It would be so easy to lie again. But he can't.

Swallowing hard, he exhales and shakes his head, just blurts it out.]

You're gonna hate me.

[It sounds way more plaintive than he meant, and he shakes his head.]

He...he's pissed because I took some pills out of the bottle before I gave them to you and stashed them. I didn't...I never took them, but...yeah. Yeah yeah...I'm sorry.

[Swallowing hard, he looks at her finally, eyes on hers, and he lets his hands relax so she can pull away if she wants to. She probably wants to.]

He...probably flushed them by now.

['You're gonna hate me', he says, and she feels her heart sink. Damn it, Klaus, what did you do.

But he comes out with it so easily and she wonders if he really thinks she would turn on him so quickly. If he thinks he could do anything, consciously, to make her hate him. It's another layer to add to the things she knows about him. Another piece of the puzzle.

She doesn't let go of his hands, not quite, though her hold on him loosens slightly when he admits what he did.]

Oh. [Julie says, and nothing more than that for a few moments while she processes. While the things Diego said rattle around in her brain. But-- no. He didn't take them. He gave the bottle up, he gave the stash up, he didn't take them and he's sorry and even without hearing the words she can feel it and see it on his face when she finally looks up at meets his eyes.]

I don't hate you. [An easy thing to say. She gives his hands a squeeze and lets them go only to put her arms around him and pull him into a tight hug.] Fucking hell, Klaus, you're such a dumbass... Don't lie to me again, okay?

[The thing is, almost everyone he's ever cared about has eventually gotten sick of him. Forgiveness isn't a common or plentiful resource in Klaus' world, and it never has been. Maybe saying she's going to hate him is a bit of an exaggeration, but he doesn't expect her to overlook being lied to. It just doesn't make sense.

When her hands go loose in his, he mostly manages to hide how it makes him cringe, but he can't quite, his brows furrow up and his mouth purses and he tries to suck it up in anticipation of her telling him how shitty he is. Because he's shitty, and he knows it. But she just says 'oh' and that she doesn't hate him, but she's letting go of his hands and he cringes again.

Or at least he does until she wraps her arms around him and hugs him, pulls him tight against her, and he's pretty much draping his arms around her shoulders and burying his face into her shoulder. Eyes squeezed tight against the tears, he nods when she calls him a dumbass and asks him not to lie to her again.]

Okay.

[His voice is tiny and a little squeaky and way more than a little pathetic, but he squeezes her, arms trembling.]

Okay.

[And she doesn't ask him to promise, because she knows the parts of him that she sees herself in and she knows, with the smallest twinge in her chest, that he'll probably lie to her again some time down the line. That maybe, some day, he'll lie about something she won't be able to forgive him for.

But that's 'if's and 'maybe's and not right now, when he's nearly crying into her shoulder and clinging around her small frame like she might float away from him.]

Okay... [She repeats, a low murmur this time, her fingers sliding into the back of his hair and running into the dark curls. The side of her thumb rubs against his scalp, and she presses her cheek to the side of his head.

And maybe walking away is what she should do. Maybe it's what she should do, and should have done so many times already, but she knows even without thinking about it that she couldn't. It isn't in her to walk away from something like this, not when someone needs her, and when her being around could make all the difference.]

Come on, drink the rest of the water. We need to get you down so you can go talk to Diego, right?

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